Lonely for you only.

I know people tell us that when we’re young we should live in the moment but I cant do that, I worry about the things down the line. I promise myself that I will achieve many great things in the future, I constantly remind myself that the harder I work the easier things will be for me further on in life. Someday I will move out of here and go live in a place that I’ll fall in love with. I’m going to surround myself with people that encourage me to be at my best. I’m also going to forget about many people yet I’ll still remember and keep in touch with some of the amazing ones. Every obstacle and speed bump I overcome everyday is just getting me one step closer to achieving my dreams. I’ll do stupid things once in awhile but at the end of the day I know what makes me different from other teenagers. I want more than money or a good life, I want to do stuff that will make me happy. I need to experience new things and I will one day love my life no matter how hard or long it will take me to get there. Everyday I feel like I’m living in a mess, I know I should be grateful for the life I have and I am but I feel tired and depressed everyday. I don’t know how to handle my emotions so I bottle them up and some days I just crack. What keeps me sane from all of it and giving up is the thought of one day being able to accomplish my hopes and dreams.